Why i chose to be abby

This is not the blog post I planned to write for today, but sometimes something happens that we feel necessary to let our voices be heard. And that is how I feel today.

Yesterday I found out about a  poster thingy that a reader of SCD had posted, and it really bothered me, I am not going to repost it here cause really  I don't want to give this person anymore attention, But basically said child avis entice people in rl to abuse children..

There were a lot of responses to it, some very supportive of our choice to be child avi's, and others very ignorant and insulting.  So today, I decided I wanted to explain to some why I choose to be a child avatar.


I have never asked a Furry why they chose to be a furry, or a tiny why they chose to be a tiny. Or the RL 200 lb very sweet lady, why she chose to be a bitchy fashion model in second life. 

The fact is, we all choose what our avi looks like and how we act for all sorts of different reasons. And no one should judge anyone for their choice.

All that being said, I have decided to share why I am a child avatar in Second Life. Not for any other reason but to maybe at least change the mind of if not one maybe a few people that think we are creepy or perverse.

I am a child of a borderline pyschopath (not sure of the totally correct term), that fact I have not shared with hardly anyone. Its not something to brag about. Actually its something I am very ashamed of.   Growing up with a mother with that kind of mental illness made for a very abusive childhood and added to that, she hated being alone, so there were tons of men in my childhood, and yes some who would rather be with little girls, than a grown woman.  So for survival i learned to cope. My coping skills were such as I was able to create in my head a place of safety, where I could escape to during the abuse and allow someone that wasn't *me* to take it.  I called this little girl abby. She became my imaginary friend of sorts I guess. And also my protector, the part of me that was so strong I was able to survive.   So when I found Second Life it was like finally, a place where this little girl, that although wasn't physically me, but was such a strong part of my inner  self, to actually be able to have a childhood without fear of pain. To actually be able to play, to have parents that loved her, and to be able to play and to experience all that I was not allowed to do as a child in my real life.   As a child avi in second life, although the perverse is all around me, the sexual sims, the adult area's. I can stay inside the safe places and be that child.  I have a family who are wonderful, the most awesome friends and the place to just be a kid and have fun. I can choose to report any pervert that comes in contact with me and teleport away if needed. I can choose the games I play. I can choose the people I allow inside my world. 

The kid and family community in Second Life have some of the most amazing people in it. Although we don't always see eye to eye and we also have our own drama. The support that they have of each other is amazing. I love the family community inside of Second Life. Its for them I decided to share this. 

In real life I have children who I love and they will always come first. I am married and my husband knows all about my second life, I do not hide a thing. Being a child inside Second Life has not caused any problems with my children or my husband. They are my life, they will always come first. But at least here inside Second Life, I can also finally give the inner child  a chance too. I think its well deserved.

I thought a few times about posting this. I don't share this part of me. Even some of my closest friends do not know all I have shared.  But I think its important to let people know from one of the child avatars they might find freaky. The reasons I chose this way to live my Second Life.


Abby <3
I in no way am saying the blog SCD supports this attitude, or that the staff of the blog approved or encourged any part of this readers opinion.